Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Where has the time gone?

Wow! It's been over 2wks since I've posted. I guess I'm officially over scheduled...or should I say DD is. School has started, soccer has official started, swim team has started, flute lessons, play dates, girl scouts...do you think she has too much on her plate? I certainly do but she fights me when I make her sit home and have a down day...what to do? I was always like that though..a go-go-go kind of girl. I always did much better in school when I had "too much to do." I guess she is her mother's child.

Speaking of which that child of mine turned 10 a few days ago. 10!! Double digits...there's no going back from that one. It was the first year we didn't have a big jammin' party...not enough time! She will of course have the annual slumber party I could do with out in a few weeks...but of course all girls love their slumber parties!

My best friend from college should also have her baby by now...she was suppose to have a C-section the day of DDs birthday...isn't that funny?? Her first baby born on the day of my 1st baby...just 10 yrs apart! I can't wait to talk to her..and see the baby!

Thank god the new TV shows are back on too....there are only so many books one can read! I tend to be a bit obsessive with books...I kind of treat them like a race....keep reading until I'm done, nothing else gets done...except the essentials of course. I tend to obsess with my TV too...I either love a show or hate it. I don't just watch to fill the time...because well, I have no time! But this time of year it is fun to see some new shows...see if any meets my specifications...and if I can squeeze any into my already overbooked schedule. And I tend to like the cult shows...Buffy, Alias, Angel, etc... You know the ones the critics love but never seem to become as popular as those mindless, serial shows that play the same scenario over, and over, and over! Don't people get bored of those shows?? You know the CSIs, NYPD Blues, Law & Order...even sitcoms do it...Frazier, Raymond...yikes! If you've seen one...you've seen them all!!!!!!!

Currently I'm addicted to Grey's & Lost...I also like Gilmore Girls...Desperate Housewives I watch...but....I don't know...I fell obligated..hoping it will be as good as the first season...but did you folks see Heros?!?!? Awesome show!! Watch it! Best show of the year!!!!!!!!! Well so far anyway!!

Well off to pick up the little one (or is she now a big one?) from soccer practice...then an early night for me! With some TV of course!

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

On that subject.....

TMZ.com is posting a copy of the video of the "Bush Death". I don't understand why we as US citizens get so crazy about this stuff. I mean isn't it a free county? Aren't you allowed to make a movie about what you want. Oh..right..that was before Bush took office. I forgot!

I haven't seen the movie...doubt I will...figure it will give me nightmares because the only thing worse than Bush being president is Cheney being president!

As I said before.....

Bush lied. And now there a website that tracks all his lies one by one. Hope they aren't paying for the space! In this election year I hope people wake up and get rid of some of these idiots in office. I know I'll do my part to be sure Santorium is out of office. Remember to vote! Everyone! VOTE! Register now!!!

Monday, September 11, 2006

What is it with her and men?

I'm sure I've covered my mother in law in some post in the recent past. But at the risk of repeating myself she can be quite an idiot.

She is not the best judge of character...nor the best of judge of men.

When she first offered to watch SL (my DD) when I was pregnant, I actually wanted to put SL in daycare. After I had SL and watch the two of them together and how she loved her I thought what harm can come of MIL watching SL. She loved her with all her heart. She didn't do everything exactly as I wished and at times she was exhausting...but for the most part it was trivial things that I could overlook. Now fast forward 9 yrs....

My daughter is almost 10 yrs old and is by far the favorite grandchild on my husband's side. It's actually somewhat embarressing. Thank god this favoritism is shown to my child...because if I was my brother in law I would be furious with my mother. My child is the apple of her grandmother's eye but it comes with it's drawl backs...most of which stem from my mother in law's lack of self worth. The sun rises and sets on this girl...and I think it's a lot of pressure for her. Over the last few years I've tried to limit the enormous amount of time the two of them spent together because not only was it a lot of pressure for my daughter but because my MIL was starting to treat my daughter move like a friend than a grandchild.

Now to the men part... She has been married and divorced 3xs, with countless men in between. She definds her self by the company she keeps. God forbid if she was alone for a moment. She recently divorced number 3 for a married man. A man that has been married for 30+ years, owns several businesses, is quite sucessful and well off and has 2 adult sons. MIL divorced husband #3 for this guy...who is still with his wife...still wears the wedding ring and all. MIL is dumb enough to think he is going to leave his wife...but this man stands to lose everything in doing so. She is keeping tight lipped about their relationship at his request and because he is waiting for the "right time." .........Yeah, right!

Now guess how I know all this??? Not from her..NO!...Not from my brother in law or husband...NO!...from my daughter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was ragging with so much anger when this was conveyed to me I was actually shaking when I picked up the phone. I knew she was seeing someone and I knew he was married but she is a grown women and I didn't want to get involved...unless it involved my child. I've told her on numerous occassions I don't want my daughter around people I don't know. I also told her I knew she was seeing a married man and while I'm not going to tell her what to do, I would not have it around my child. Guess what else I found out? He was been to MIL's house at least twice when SL was there and SL has been to his business and meant him several times!!!!!!!!!!!!

I called her and told her in no uncertain terms that first of all my daughter was not to be around anyone I didn't know. Secondly my daughter is her granddaughter not her girlfriend, and thirdly my daughter is not to be exposed to this kind of behavior. I proceed to tell her if she did not comply with my wishes she would no longer be watching my daughter...to this she said fine and hung up. If I could ever actually crawl thru a phone and strangle someone this had to be the moment. But you know what??? This is okay...I really didn't want SL to be with her.

Now this happen Friday a week ago and I haven't heard a word from MIL in over a week...until Sunday night. Sunday night when the phone rang and on the caller ID I saw her number...I almost didn't answer...but my curiousity got the best of me. And in her bubbly, like nothing happened voice I hear........." Hi M! I was wondering if I could take SL out to dinner tonight?"

To this I replied did we not just have a conversation about this a week ago and if I couldn't trust her...I couldn't trust her. That means no out to eat, no walks thru the mall, no Saturday afternoons at the pool unless myself or S was present. Throught the whole thing she just keeps yelling over me....over and over again..."Alright M, Alright M!"

This time I hung up.

I mean come on? Am I being unreasonable? She is my daughter. And you know what??? Who cares if I'm being unreasonable! It's my call! It's my kid! If I said she has to have pickles for breakfast and wear purple pants everyday than so be it.

I actually looked the guy's address up online. He was quite easy to find. I typed up a letter and addressed it to the Mrs. Man my MIL is have an affair with. I really wanted to send it. I really want this women to know. Isn't it only fair that she does? Wouldn't you want to know? But you know what? I didn't! I shredded the letter...I don't know..Would that qualify in the bad karma category? I don't need any bad karma. Or would not sending the letter be bad karma? God I don't know!!

Friday, September 08, 2006

News and updates! LID!!!

Today we finally got word that we have a LID of 8/17/06!! Yeah! Now we get to wait oh...what is it now?? 13 mos and maybe upwards of 2 yrs to have a baby. Not like I haven't waited long enough!

As of now, the thought of the wait doesn't bother me too much. Kind of weird huh? I guess it is because I know there is an end in sight...at the end of this long journey I'll have another baby girl. It excites me and terrifies me all at the same time.

As I was sitting outside this evening with some of my neighbors and the kids...I was thanking god my daughter is almost 10 and I don't have to be running around after screaming kids...kids crying because this one is riding the pink bike, or because they didn't catch the ball the same number of times as that one...I didn't have to yell..."NO STREET!" Or "Don't push her down on the sidewalk." I just sat there...loving it all.

Wow! Life is easy and I'm giving it up. Strange huh? Plus at this point and time I want to KILL ....yes KILL my husband..but I'm okay being a single parent with two kids! But that is a story for another day!

By the way.......I've actually attempted to post two or three different times over the past week and each one has been eaten up in cyper space...had a great one last Friday about my darling mother in law...she has been officially fired as a babysitter and will no longer spend alone time with my daughter but that will be yet another story for another day. I'm tired. Time to veg in front of the TV!