Okay I'm back

I think I'm back now. Moving forward, sometimes I feel like I'm standing still, but at least I'm not face first in my bed anymore!

To all those in the adoption world. What the fuck?! God...waits are growing to enormous sizes. I thought I'd be in it for 2 yrs, I prepared myself to wait 2 yrs, HELL, I've been waiting for 9 yrs now to have another child, what's 2 more years...Did you see they only referred 2 days last month! Yes 2 DAYS! What the hell! Do the math people..YIKES! A friend of mine has a LID of 11/10/05...still no baby. I'm far enough removed that I'm not completely losing my mind over this...but if I was her...I'd be back in that bed face down.

So S. and I talked about doing an interim adoption...called my agency, they said okay as long as I have 1 yr between placements...but then all these rumors about being denied a child for ANY.LITTLE.THING. RACE! Seriously...some poor women denied a baby because she is black...are you kidding me!? So I've decided I'm a coward and I think I'll sit tight and just wait...and wait...Oh! Did I mention, WAIT!?!?!?

And then a blogger I've followed on and off for a while, Jen/Chew posted about her horrible "disruption." Disruption doesn't seem to do it justice. I would have died. I wouldn't be back in that bed face down. I would be under it.

And then the comments this poor women gets. I'm sure she lives with her decision every day of her life and will continue to do so. She is putting her story out there so WE, WE of the adoption community can learn from her. So WE don't have to go thru her pain. So WE can be armed with knowledge when we go to China for our children. In an event like this you would think we would gather around and support her but no.... not the Fellowship of China Adoption Church. No, let's berate her some more, tell her what Jesus would and wouldn't do, and keep our secrets in the closet where they belong.